
Deaths of Despair
By Pablo C. Vergara ©
Shadow figures
Don’t be shy
Come dance with me
Under the Moonlight
Come dance with me and
My torment
And my pain
Serenade this cold heart
Through his Endless Night
Run with me into the hills
Let us hide from the light
One more time
And sing to our sorrows
Wishing for another Dawn
Were we can kiss Eternal
Into our endless sleep
Come dance with me
Come dance with me
Come dance with me
Soft Linen nights on
stranger’s beds
Mourning lights
Of Macedonian Wine
A town I cannot spell the name
Voices that speak no meaning
A stray wild cat with a missing eye and a hunger for life
A seagull suspended under the gray clouds
But she is trying to reach somewhere
While the Ocean dances violently
And the freezing kiss of dawn
A window to a time of dull emptiness
And yet this furious restless heart
Exalts the red red kroovy
The pills numb the senses
But the body feels the weight of their departure
A stone metamorphosis
Sinking me deep
I’ve slept for days but the pounding and shoving of life’s demises keep me in a stupor
An endless welcoming slumber
That feels like Death
A mix of poisons to numb the demons that rape me religiously
I told her softly
I should make a Sect out of this Pain
Make it count for something
Is this how it feels to be free?
I am the loneliest man I know
I want to lick your filth disease
And dance to the funeral marches
Of your misery
Flying Colors
But the promise of Death
Floats around our projecting shadows
Dirt and the stench of Sulphur
Permeates our nightly dangers
A single light paves the way to our Sanctuary
But lost and alone we pray for the Angels to take us home
Devils and Deviants constellations of Pain
We will lick our wounds
And savior the pain
Our loyal companion
The only thing that speaks the truth
As the world burns
And decays into absolution
the pain
Our loyal companion
The only thing that speaks the truth
As the world burns
And decays into absolution
The sun has faded with my heart
Colorblind I see the world
Through the cracks of the
Mirror of my soul
He said
So the clockwork moves
Whenever you say
and
keep on being a fool
then time will remain still
But
I need a Lawyer
or
Three
God created Booze
for a reason
The Crone said
But
keep on being a fool
and then time will remain still...
She blew his vocal chords
Screaming in angst.
Can I trade my soul with yours?
They said.
KILL IT ALL AWAY
NIGHTS OF TOXIC RAIN
WITH MANHATTAN SKYLINE ENGULFING ME
AND YOU
LEFT TO THE STARS
AND I COULDN'T SEE YOU ONE LAST TIME
TO SAY GOODBYE
AND THE TEARS FLOATED AWAY
IT WAS STILL A WARM BREEZE
I WASNT
COLD
THEY PEEKED THROUGH THEIR WINDOWS UP IN THE SKY
A MOMENT OF PURITY
A MOMENT TRAPPED IN ETERNITY
SUN
You wore them flowers so well
And surprised me when I asked for your picture
Your skin shined like the morning myst
Ethereal and magical
Like a photograph burned in my brain
I memorized every line
Your lips so inviting
I dreamt of their taste
I could feel your soft skin in my touch
One night I embraced my pillow
Fooling my mind and pretending it was you
Who I was holding
When I first met you I wrote a poem for you
Today is lost in between the madness of my life
But I remember it
God sent us flying
We took the the journey
And one day after a million miles
A million sights and sunrises
We crossed paths
And then our lives were entwined
Your light illuminates my sadness
Your heart heals my bleeding wounds
When I hear that you care my life is complete
I learn from you
You help me understand and believe
That there is goodness
When you spoke in your mother tongue
I was mesmerized
Your laughter and your joy was infectious
Sometimes I am confused
Sometimes I am numb
Sometimes I don’t believe
But today I also feel like
This could be something else
Something true
Nightly Terrors
In my youth I didn’t drank that much
I would do it in rituals maybe once or twice a month
My mind was a sharp weapon
Unfiltered and untethered
I wasn’t famous
But I always believed I would be
I was unknown but I didn’t needed the world
I could float and felt like I could handle it all
I would get hammered in that balcony and write or draw
It was a good escape and it felt special
Today it’s lost it’s meaning
I’ve been in that dark void of oblivious nothingness so long
It’s become part of my DNA
It’s no longer special but very necessary
My face is broken
I’m bleeding from everywhere
My soul is a pulp
It helps ease the pain
But I’m escaping
No longer how much you run
Why do I keep doing this?
I wish I had a home
A family
And a dog
Santa give me what I ask for
Please
And get me some Whisky too
Sterile Lights
Sterile lights
That blind us with shame
Exposing our scars
Living truths
of the broken Dreams
That follow us to remind us
Of the battles won
But yet deform our
Sterile sights
That light us with pride
Hiding our virginity
Dying lies
Of fulfilled Lives
That escape us to forsaken us
Of the peace forlorn
I want
I want to lick your filth disease
And dance to the funeral marches
Of your misery
Little stories
Everyone has a secret they keep from everyone else.
Everyone have a pure mask when they are alone with themselves
That secret self
a shadow and mysterious self
That’s Morbid
He’s the physical representation
of my Dark Subconscious
The Monster inside me
Not hiding in plain sight
——
Have you ever had that feeling
When someone have lied about you
And accused you wrongfully
And they got away with it
and you feel
Powerless
and angry and hurt?
Well that happened to me x 1000000
And I couldn’t do anything about it
I hid it
I hid from the world
For almost a decade..
I realized that wasn’t the solution
I had to … Face it…
And here I am now, facing it
Facing every single one of you who tried to
Hurt me and destroy me
And just wanted to let you all know
That you couldn’t touch me.
I won.